[No, gods, she can’t tell tell Akua she never even thought of her lover as handsome or sexually desirable when they first met… can she? That’s so rude seeming…]
… I know there can be love without lust. Or. I had hoped there could be. I just… wanted to know if there was some easy way to tell.
… But there is no easy way, I suppose.
I apologize.
It was likely foolish of me to ask in the first place.
For me, for example, I respect and am challenged by both you and Set, and while... [ A soft laugh. ] There is no lack of affection, romantic love is... different.
You are the only person who can answer it. Whether or not you feel love. It is not something you have to be right or wrong about, either.
[She wants to protest, that she isn't a fool who would think there is, but... Perhaps it will only dig her own grave deeper. Make her sound like some maiden who hadn't known anything about love at all, to the point where she would ask who she did and expect understanding to come to her.
... Well, it was probably too late for that.
They are both Iconoclasts, so there is little use hiding how... sullen Hayame feels. Should she ask... no, Liem did not wish to hear of such affairs, and there was... no, not him, either, so-]
... Thank you. For your advice.
[She will still say that, though. She had bothered the other woman in the middle of the night. And even if she feels no closer to the answer to the question she'd truly wanted to ask... there was the matter of the lead-in question, which was. Still important.]
I will take you up on your offer, by the way. About the.
[ They have a deep connection, between their shared aspect. She reaches out with her mind, and shares with her the path to a pharmacy, makes sure it is from familiar, well-trodden landmarks. There is also a note of sympathy, as she knows she did not really answer the question.
Unfortunately, she knows that Hayame would need to answer it herself. And if she did not, then it would not be so. If she did, and found later that she did not, yes, even then. She will have learned more about herself.
Though, she also knew, she was different than most here. Praesi did not have such...emotional attachments most of the time. Her mother had not. Masego's fathers had, but... the Warlock had always been rather unusual. Given the group he ran with, that was not surprising. ]
You will find your answer, I am sure of it, Hayame.
No. Hayame shoves that weak thought back down where it belonged. She did not need anyone to go with her. She can tackle the fears of womanhood all by herself. In fact- In fact, no one seeing her balk over buying such things was for the best. Akua was doing her a favor.]
[She "folds" the directions and puts them away for later. She had already thanked Akua for her advice, so she does not know what to say to her surety... so she goes with an impression of a nod, acknowledging it before she readies to "go".]
Apologies for disturbing you this late. Rest well when you do.
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I am.
… Confused.
Until he… I did not even…
[No, gods, she can’t tell tell Akua she never even thought of her lover as handsome or sexually desirable when they first met… can she? That’s so rude seeming…]
… I know there can be love without lust. Or. I had hoped there could be. I just… wanted to know if there was some easy way to tell.
… But there is no easy way, I suppose.
I apologize.
It was likely foolish of me to ask in the first place.
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What you want from someone is trust, and therefore, you have it.
[ It perhaps, should be be so simple, but to Akua... it is. Why wouldn't it be? ]
You value it, after all, yes?
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[Doesn't everyone? She almost asks that. Until she remembers she’s asking a Praesi and a chaotic war god about how they knew they were in love.
Sigh.]
I… I do not know.
I trust… Liem Talbott, for example, but I do not… love him…
[Not… romantically??? Ugh, this is so stupid-]
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For me, for example, I respect and am challenged by both you and Set, and while... [ A soft laugh. ] There is no lack of affection, romantic love is... different.
You are the only person who can answer it. Whether or not you feel love. It is not something you have to be right or wrong about, either.
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... Well, it was probably too late for that.
They are both Iconoclasts, so there is little use hiding how... sullen Hayame feels. Should she ask... no, Liem did not wish to hear of such affairs, and there was... no, not him, either, so-]
... Thank you. For your advice.
[She will still say that, though. She had bothered the other woman in the middle of the night. And even if she feels no closer to the answer to the question she'd truly wanted to ask... there was the matter of the lead-in question, which was. Still important.]
I will take you up on your offer, by the way. About the.
The "pharmacy".
[Just. You know. In case. Just in case.]
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[ They have a deep connection, between their shared aspect. She reaches out with her mind, and shares with her the path to a pharmacy, makes sure it is from familiar, well-trodden landmarks. There is also a note of sympathy, as she knows she did not really answer the question.
Unfortunately, she knows that Hayame would need to answer it herself. And if she did not, then it would not be so. If she did, and found later that she did not, yes, even then. She will have learned more about herself.
Though, she also knew, she was different than most here. Praesi did not have such...emotional attachments most of the time. Her mother had not. Masego's fathers had, but... the Warlock had always been rather unusual. Given the group he ran with, that was not surprising. ]
You will find your answer, I am sure of it, Hayame.
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No. Hayame shoves that weak thought back down where it belonged. She did not need anyone to go with her. She can tackle the fears of womanhood all by herself. In fact- In fact, no one seeing her balk over buying such things was for the best. Akua was doing her a favor.]
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[She "folds" the directions and puts them away for later. She had already thanked Akua for her advice, so she does not know what to say to her surety... so she goes with an impression of a nod, acknowledging it before she readies to "go".]
Apologies for disturbing you this late. Rest well when you do.
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